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Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Ahhh, its wednesday already.

Time past by real fast. Next month, ehh wait, next week is already the fasting month.

Gaahh, eat alot people, till you get fat. Nyahah. Kay not.

So yeah, as time pass by, the time to my olvls getting shorter.

Less than 2 months already. *screams like mad*

I gotta do my best. But i dont know whether i can do very well. ('Believe you can.')

I havent started revising much.

This is my last week to enjoy as much as i can.

Before i start settling down with my studies.

So today, this is random, but i went to causeway after my extra class with my classmate, nini.

Nyahh. Its just that i dont like going to places using my sch uni.

It simply suck. Bleargh. And i saw golly! Lol.

Okay, i wanted to search fer something. And i got it. Yay!

Ohh, what happened in boots and shoes. Ssshhh.

Kay better not say anything here. *insert innocent face* :DD

Baybeats coming up. Whoo. But i cant stay late. A pity, cos i want to watch typecast. :(

Oh well. Time to take a rest now.

As it has been a very bad, hectic, saddening weekend fer me.

Trying not to remember anything though.

Cos i know it will come back around. And that made me to move on.

So yeah, im learning still. Its okay.

But im starting not to believe in these stuffs again.

After studies and olvls then can start again i guess.

Ohh, and im left with 3 or 4 weeks of school after sept hols before i graduate! Nyahh.

But my school pathetic. Its no fun. -.- But glad, it will be over soon. *smiles widely*

Oh. It was my dad's bdae yest and my parents' anni. Awesome right. Lol.

My dad turned 54. Old in age, but still strong and young in looks.(:

And it was the 27th anniversary fer them.

Awww. Sweet! I love my family. :D

And two of my classmate had their birthday today.

So my class with the party popper and balloons when they came to class.

It just happened within minutes. While i sat back and watch them. Pathetic much. -.-

Some people are just biased enough. And i hate it.

And yes, i cut to bangs bangs bangs, again.

Lalalala~ Kay shooooo!

Remembering Sunday;

He woke up from dreaming and put on his shoes.

Starting making his way past 2 in the morning.

He hasn't been sober for days.

Leaning now into the breeze.

Remembering Sunday, he falls to his knees.

They had breakfast together.

But two eggs don't last.

Like the feeling of what he needs.

Now this place is familiar to him.

She pulled on his hand with a devilish grin.

She led him upstairs, she led him upstairs.

Left him dying to get in.

Forgive me, I'm trying to find.

My calling, I'm calling at night.

I don't mean to be a bother,

But have you seen this girl?

She's been running through my dreams.

And it's driving me crazy, it seems.

I'm gonna ask her to marry me.

Even though she doesn't believe in love,

He's determined to call her bluff.

Who could deny these butterflies?

They're filling his gut.

Waking the neighbors, unfamiliar faces.

He pleads though he tries.

But he's only denied.

Now he's dying to get inside.

Forgive me, I'm trying to find.

My calling, I'm calling at night.

I don't mean to be a bother,

But have you seen this girl?

She's been running through my dreams.

And it's driving me crazy, it seems.

I'm gonna ask her to marry me.

The neighbors said she moved away.

Funny how it rained all day.

I didn't think much of it then.

But it's starting to all make sense.

Oh, I can see now that all of these clouds.

Are following me in my desperate endeavor.

To find my whoever, whoever she may be.

[Juliet Simms:]

I'm not coming back, I've done something so terrible.

I'm terrified to speak, but you'd expect that from me.

I'm mixed up, I'll be blunt

Now the rain is just washing you out of my hair.

And out of my mind.

Keeping an eye on the world,

So many thousands of feet off the ground, I'm over you now.

I'm at home in the clouds, towering over your head.

[Alex Gaskarth:]

I guess I'll go home now.

I guess I'll go home.

7:19 PM

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Saturday wasnt my day. Urrgh.

1:40 AM

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Yes, ive been feeling like a pathetic-little-girl-who-needs-erm-everything.

I dont know whats wrong with me these days.

Oh wait, maybe i do. Not everyone i told why.

Cos it isnt necessary to some.

But i wanna say thank you to those who has given me some advices and asking me too cheer up.

Although i said i cant, you guys never fail to help me. Hearts you guys.

And though they dont read my blog, i wanna say thanks.

You guys should know who you are.(:

And so, its not pms.

Its just a girl thingy. We tend to think too much?

Two of my friends, qissy and sri, was in the same situation as me.

Qissy, you should be happy now. Be strong and you shall wait fer the time to pass by.

It isnt that long. If you love him, you can wait.(:

Sri, i know its hard. Its hard fer me too.

I understand how you feel cos im in your situation too.

We shall meet up soon and talk aites.(:

As usual, went to jamm with heartfelt and hidayahg yesterday night.

It was kinda short to me as hid and me left early after the jamm.

And i wasnt feeling like myself also. Hmms.

So i had to be home by 11 and i was late, as usual.

My sis has been saying im coming home more late these days. Hais.

Its not on purpose tht i wanna come home late even.

So i shall be meeting my other makkals later today.

Its time to meet them. Been ages since ive seen them.

I hope i will feel better after that. We shall see how.

So where has my fun and laughter gone to?:(

Down the drain i guess. I seem to ferget whats laughter. I need it.

Can someone bring the laughter back to me.

Laughter is the best medicine. Its the only med i need now.

Its been too long, im getting sick.

Sick with sadness and all those negative stuffs.

Mummy, i think i have fallen in love.

I have not experienced like this before.

But i do not knoww. If the other way ard feels the same.

Im scared. Love is just too complicated and tough fer everyone to handle.

I shall just let time do its work instead now. Studies first.

Its just two months away. I need to get my butt down and study ASAP.

Urrrgghh. -___-

1:48 PM

Monday, August 18, 2008

Urrgh. Crazy. Idiot. Lame. Sad. Shoot. Kill. Die. Hate. Stop. Change. Damn. Haiz.

The reason why i put this at my msn pm is to remind myself.

These words just make me want to put them up as it expressed how i feel when i wrote them.

Dont ask me why i feel this way, fer some reason, you dont have to know.

Im like being enclosed in a small room and the room is squeezing me tight.

Although i push the walls with all my strength and energy,

It will soon be dried off till i hafta give up.

But no, i will not let my weakness take over me.

I will be angry to myself. Why didnt i try hard enough?

Or maybe its not me or my weakness.

I tried my best and thats what is important.

But will it all be worth it in the end?

Will i get what i want? Do wishes even come true?

It feels like fairytales are fake. Love in them are just not the reality.

So what if they live happily ever after? Is that really the end of story?

I hate myself fer feeling this way.

Can what i hear be the truth. I dont think so.

I cant explain why im behaving this way.

I wish there's an explanation fer it.

I wish that there's a smile that we can always put on every day.

Let all the other expression fade away.

Let happiness conquer the world.

Urrgh, i feel angry to myself.

I feel like im a crazy, idiotic person.

Im being very lame.

I feel sad.

I feel like shooting myself, and kill who i am.

Let me die so that it will all end.

I hate being this way.

I must stop and change myself.

Damn, but its really hard.

Haiz. :(

Learn from your mistakes.

Never to repeat them.

Even if others are there fer you, be glad.

But there will always be a time when you stop and realise.

What is life, what is the purpose of us being here now.

We were given the chance to live again from our previous life.

Are we doing enough to really make use of the chance.

Did we try our own best to achieve what we want.

Isit all worth it in the end?

I want the truth. Just say the truth.

Stop the walls from squeezing me.

It hurts me alot. Tears will run down with their own legs.

Like how the spoon ran off with the plate.

And how the cow jump over the moon.

Stop my mind from thinking of the negatives.

Think of the positive. But i will always think of the negatives.

If IT is all that i needed, will it be there fer me always like i want it to be?

Do fairytales come true in reality?

No matter what, i will know what i truly feel about it.

I wouldnt wanna let it go. Never would i.

But unless i have to, in the name of love, would i have to do it.

Get this feeling off from myself.

Help me. I feel like im stranded in an island, alone.

I will miss everything that is left at home.

Let me fight this wall.

Let me get the walls down.

Let me run over it so that i can be happy and free.

Do not let this feeling take over me like how i think everyone would feel the same, once at least in your life.

Let the truth be enough to let the feeling go.

Let this moment be over soon.

I pray that the walls will break although its thick and hard.

Where are you when i need you;

But i know who i am.

I know who i am to it.

So thats why the walls are coming up to me.

Maybe thats why.

Let me cry my eyes out.

Hoping all this will fade away and come to an end.

Isit possible?

So what is it?

8:16 PM

Sunday, August 17, 2008

This is my 100th post. Whoots! Kay, that was random.

Nyahah. But ive been too busy nowadays to update everyday.

School's taking up most of my time. Ending late everyday.

And im left with only erm 6 weeks of school if im not wrong.

Around there i guess. And guess what.

Olvl's coming up pretty soon. In two months' time.

Goshh. Pretty fast right. Haiyoo.

And my prelims result? I shall get all my papers back tomorow.

But did get some of my results back.

My class emaths not that bad. 15 ppl got A1.

But i think the paper 1 was kinda easy. Thats why ppl could score.

Besides that, my amaths i fail due to my paper 2. :(

Never mind. Better start studying.

I dont have much time left.

Let me update. On friday as usual,

Followed heartfelt signature fer jamming.

And i arrived home pretty late [12 plus actually] . Till my sis scolded me.

Im supposed to be home by 11 no matter what.

But its not like everyday i go home late anyways.

Its just during the weekends thats all.

And although ive been nagged and nagged to be home early.

The next day, saturday, i went home past 11 coming to 12.

Well, at least i said i will be home late. *wink-wink*

Saturday went out with aery, fid chan, kiddy and shawn first.

I was late due to the bus. Damn i waited fer 15 mins there just fer a bus.

Wanted to scold the m-f-busdriver. Urrgh.

Oh. And i played tekken at the arcade till my right hand cramp.

And my muscles/nerve twisted i think.

It was damn painful i couldnt move my hand.

Soon after, hidayahg came to join us.

Wanted to play bowling but only after 10 its available.

So we went to the court house there and played cards.

Murderer and bluff. Eh, what happened to the forfeit?!

Everyone fergot abt it i guess. Haha. Kay, sshhh!

Took pictures using my cam since hid nvr brought hers.

I took their band photos as well since their drummer was there too.

And i saw yan-skater-boy after so long havent seen him, on the way home.

Okay im done.

I need to go do my homework now. Tata! ^^

Heartfelt Signature;

&Do wishes come true?

3:43 PM

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Below are of the photos yesterday.

I was at home, bored, doing nothing when myy rang me up.

Met them at rp but then myy, azzah, siti had to go off. -.-

So left me, shee, ielah and ham.

Went to grab something to eat at banquet and civic.

Sat down, chit-chatted about stuffs.

Especially ielah and me. You know-i know-we know. Nyahah.

Ferget abt guys with that name! Lets move on.

Okay. My mother toungue results? I dont wish to say it here.

You want to know, ask me. Anyways im not good in my malay. Blueagh.

Okay ielah-cinderielah, time to do your stealing of photos! :DD

[ Sepet-eyes]

1:48 PM

Monday, August 11, 2008

Saturday ;

Sunday ;

On saturday i went to the ndp with sri.

I really had trouble choosing who to go with as i only got two tix.

End up, i went with her as she wanted to go it very much.

Crowded as it was almost everywhere. Typical singaporeans.

Got one lady even ask, do you have any free tix? -.-'

So we sat and watched. Kinda boring during the performance.

Oh, it rained. And we were all wet. What a weather.

Fireworks was the same as last week. No difference.

I think the fun part of the ndp was either that and the black knights.

They were awesome. Fuuh.

After that, headed to raffles to meet up with aery, kiddy and his friends.

Sent sri to the mrt and we went to marina to meet up with hidayah goh.

Then took pictures and headed home in the last train.

On sunday.

Supposingly to go to the arthouse gig.

But didnt went cos family had to go out to some wedding.

Anyways they say the gig was wasted and boring i guess.

Good thing i didnt went. After wedding, headed home.

And it was a pretty boring day fer me after that.

Even today. Oh damn.

Im scared fer the mother toungue results tomorow.

Gaaaahhhh! Im praying hard.

Well, lets see whats the outcome tomorow then.

<333

3:18 PM

Thursday, August 7, 2008

And this is what kitty does when she's bored at home.

Since i didnt have any paper yest.

Im glad. At last, my prelim examination is over.

Whooots. Now i can rest at home.

Then start on my studies once again, soon enough.

And mother toungue results is next week.

Lets hope i get at least B3. *praying*

Good luck to those having their prelim examination soon.

All the best yeahh! ^^

Dont mind me.

I love taking photos. ^^

10:32 AM

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

These are the pictures on last monday.

The cake ;

Kitt&Myy ;

Sabo-time ;

Ielah&Kitt&Myy ;

Totally covered in flour ;

Darlings ;

Kitt Camwhored ;

Ham. Lol ;

Ham&Myy&Qal&Ielah&Kitt ;

Candid ;

Look at ham's face :D ;

Qal&Kitt&Ham ;

The End. Thanks to these people fer making it a memorable one. ^^

3:00 PM