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my scandal.(: my bf. :D sisters. <3 my lesbian. xD

okay. photos are not yet done. these photos are on last last sunday. went bowling with family and cousins. but the rest of the photos is halfway uploaded bcos i fell asleep. i had my paper today. my MT O'lvl paper! gosh, at last its over. but the paper? its okay. abit difficult cos im not good in my malay. im not confident abt my paper 1 section B. i write stoopid things. and whats 'mencemaskan'? haiyoo. see, i told you im not that good. blearghh. nvr mind. i know i'll have to do it again in november. now, i just have to ferget abt malay first. time to revise on the rest! i dont think i have much time you knw. kay let me update on friday first. actually nothing much. just went to school and went home. then went to simpang bedok to meet my mum and her work friends cos they went to eat. alot of her work friends all those from sarawak, indo and all. around 20 including the makciks? blearghh. i dont mix. i just went there to eat. got to know, all the food my mum paid! gosh, wanna knw how much? 392 i think. dollars okay! not ringgit or what. i feel like shouting at my mum. how dumb. kay not dumb uh but coming to $400 spent just like that! can just pass to me some right. my mum told me not to tell my dad or my sis. confirm she will get scolding! nyahah. so after that i met rizwan, a friend of mine, at yishun. he came late cos he thought i havent yet reached. *doink! waited at mac and at last he reached. so sat down and chatted. then we went to the rc near my house fer awhile to sit. oh, he rides a scooter/vespa. how cute. nyehehs. then went back home. friday's done! <3 on saturday! supposingly to meet shazz at orchard. i bumped into azzah and siti in the train! gosh, i didnt knw they stayed in wlds. i thought maybe they stay near to ielah or somthing. nyehehs. so took the train together. myy and ielah soon join us in the train. coincidentally bumped into them in the train. how cool. hehs. i only received shazz msgs when i reaching orchard. when i called him after i reach, he was still at jurong playing cs. -.-' at orchard i bumped into zulfadli cos he was waiting to meet rara. so yeahh i trained to city hall and meet my gfs. waited fer norra to come. city hall was like airport waiting fer arrival. idk which flight norra took. SQ maybe? nyahahs. kay stop the merepekness. ^^ went to eat at foodcourt then hang out at our usual spot. sit and chatted all throught the night. azzah and siti went off first at night. hayqal and hamzah then came along. soon, myy and ielah had to go. left with my and norra and those two gays. hehs. norra wasnt in the mood though due to her grandma who had recently passed away and including someone. cheer up aite darling? im sure she loves you too very much. *hugs* she then went off with her bf. so left with me, qal and ham. we sing and chat and chat and sing. soon it was 11. everyone else left besides us. what else? camwhored! i had a fun night with them. we are like best friends already. nyahahs. hearts them both.(: they even sent me to the train. bumped into wan, ibrahim and leez. we took the very last train. as usual wan with his merepekness. i kept on laughing till my stomach hurts. hehs. cos he opened the sound of a cat in my phone, in the train. so practically everyone was looking at us.i asked him to stop but he did it three times and it was kinda loud. maybe one of the passengers thought there was a cat in the train. nyahahs. thats all fer saturday! <3 sunday! initially i intended to go study fer my MT exam but my sis ask me to follow go wedding and my aunt place after tht. i didnt wear baju kurung or whatsoever. i wore long sleeves and jeans.i guess nowadays ppl are too lazy to wear traditional clothes, except fer the old ones. surprisingly there i saw my old neighbour who used to live on top of my house, fuad [ i had a crush on him. he was cute. nisha, a neighbour&friend, told me that he like me. nyahahs. but nahh we'll nvr go on. its just a crush.(: ] went to my aunt place then studied with my sis' bf at mac at tamp cc. there i saw haikel, my ex. he saw me, we just smiled. so i studied and studied on the peribahasa till i wrote down again most of it. i have stm, fyi. i cant remember things well. studied halfway till i was too tired and went to sleep. <3 monday which is today. had the exam in the morning. went back home straight and initially to blog this post. but i fell asleep after uploading only 5 pictures. nyehehs. woke up, only managed to change the song on my blog. wanted to go library actually. then qal msged me. he and ham was in the bus from commonwealth to wlds. so met up with them instead at mac in civic. they both are full of merepekness and they are gays! :D nyahahs. no theyre not gays obviously. went to eat and then started all the fun. eating with them is worser than eating with a child. ham took alot of salt and pepper and we were throwing salt and pepper here and there. ham even ate oreo with curry sause and mayo. and chili. i tried eating my mayo. nyehehs. throwed tissue papers and all. it was food attack! *mummy says dont play with your food* haha. i had fun though eating with them. salt here, pepper there. we were creating chaos & in the end the table was in a mess. i never had any much fun eating like these. went to library after that. as usual, creating a mess in public. taking books here and there fer fun. walked around causeway point then went to a playground near 168 bus stop at the hawker centre. there started the chaos and merepekness again. camwhored, then climbed on top of the playground took photos yet again. i swear i was scared that i could just fall down. then started to have fun sliding and wrestling and piggyback and all. i know i am heavy and fat. even they say so that im heavy. and my tummy's fat. so believe me when i say im fat.(: most girls have big tummy guys. you both just didnt know. nyehehs. so yeah i really had a fun time with both of them till i sweat from all those sliding. they even squished me below them cos i piggyback ham [ can you believe it ] then qal jumped on top of ham till i fall flat. i fell down quite alot of times. my skin could like have just torn off. so yeahh. it was super-duper-fun hanging out with them. we are like three musketeers and we are like best friends already even though its my third time seeing them today. hehs. maybe im meeting them again tomorow! yayness. more fun! pictures not yet uploaded. soon okay? so goodnight everyone. i have to go sleep now. im having class tomorow and the next day and the following day till two weeks. holidays are not meant to be holidays fer us. my holidays will be packed with studies and trip and all. i'll update soon with photos along, hopefully. so takecare and goodnights darlings!♥

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so yeah. what now? may i ask why now? why after its been a month plus ago and now? why when i already moved on. and why when i guess you already moved on. so yeah. WHY? what do you want from me? youve already found someone who's better than me. so why? i just dont get it. i dont want to find fault or what but still. i must have a say too. oh yeah. so if we could turn back time which is impossible, i guess we shouldnt really rush things like you said. and do you remember our first month? do you, at the memorial, with your two friends having guys talk when i was sitting at the side alone. i overheard you guys and you lied to me. you lied on the very first month. you said you still were, when you werent. you could just have told the truth cant you? it may not be a big deal whether you was or not but still you could have just said it and not lie. it then started all those arguments. every time we always argue. it never stops. it starts with me and sometimes it starts with you too. i cared fer you. even from the start. but im sorry. like you said im obsessed with you? isit wrong of me to meet you? since you dont want to practice that, okay fine. different ppl has different ways. but i know i had loved you. on my birthday, on the eve of my birthday, we were out with your friends. i was the one who told you it was already my birthday. i wondered if you even remembered. but i had good memories. so yeah, dude, a friend, a good friend of mine. like how you and your friends are together. gawd, if me and him were to have something on. i wouldnt have gone on with you, i would have go on with him. and i know him waayy before i know you. and i certainly know that. hey, at least i have someone to talk to when im down and pissed with you. i need someone to talk, get it. fuck, im pissed bcos at least i didnt say names. but hell yeah. you just did. you could have just named me right. have i ever named it here, never. bbq pit with your csc friends, you asked me to tag along remember. then suddenly you said i cant since its all guys. so why ask me whether i want to go when i cant? i went back home frm sch, we argued. you said fine, you wont meet me and you wont go either. so i went to your block. i was sitting down on the staircase. i dont fuckingly know whether to tell you that im under your block or not. oooh suddenly, guessed who appears magically? with a bag, all prepared. you lied to me, exbf. i was pissed too. i cried and i walked away, you didnt chase me. fine, i sat on the bench on the opposite block. couldnt you have walked a little further just across? instead you called me. couldnt it get much more worse? soon you went off when your friends came and just left me there, crying. that was why i ask fer break. and yeah one particular night, we were walking home. your ex gf msged you. i heard your phone rang. you looked and then you deleted it. right in front of me baby. directly in front of me. when i asked who, you said no one. oh yeah, so no one msged you when your phone rang and you deleted it? how amazing. how can i not get sad over it. my friend called saying that saw you in the train. you lied to me. you said you were going back home. oh when im having dance practice, i trusted you. i thought i did when suddenly you lied. it all went away. and i didnt want to believe that that guy in the train was you. and when i asked, i thought maybe you will say something or realise about it. but you didnt. that was when it all started. i waited fer you fer one week, i hell did. i called you i msged you. alot of times, but you chose to ignore. and when you picked up, finally. thank god fer that. you'd had enough, you said. but the most hurting part was when you said you were seeing someone else already. so yeah. i was a dumb idiot waiting fer you fer one week. that was when it was all put to an end. soo it seems like we had soo much argument, i dont know when can we ever go along together peacefully. all not your fault okay darling. its all mine. happy now? i know you are happy better off right now. so yeah. i have no intentions of arguing of finding fault or whatever thing with you right now. i just need to say all these so i can clear you off my mind. not only you, but everything. everything that is on my mind. its a wrong time now, really. because of that i couldnt concentrate on my malay lessons today. im having my malay O lvl paper next week. i know you dont bother cos it doesnt concern you at all right. but do you have to ruin everything now? and i mean now. so look, get it over and done with. you head on with your life, i head on with mine. so shall we? put a fullstop to all these nonsense. i never would have want to hurt you. muhd ridzwan, you were the greatest guy ive ever had. youre a good guy. and so i did had a hard time fergetting about you. i miss all those memories we had, from the start when you dyed my hair at the carpark till the end. but some things just have to put an end to it. i feel better right now after ive cleared my thoughts here. so yeah, do take care and take care of the girl youre dating with. just be happy which you are right now. i gave up on checking your profile too. we have nothing on anymore. so why should i bother when it will only hurt me more. haha. clubbing? maybe when im 18, so see you there then. lol. so head on with your life, i'll head mine. so GOODBYE it will be fer now.

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KITTY: yeah. here to update fer the past few days. let me update first on friday. went to lib in the afternoon after my class to meet myy and faeez there. met fer awhile only to borrow some books. then met abu zarrin, the guy who killed hitler! yes, he drove hitler till depression thats why hitler killed himself. thats what zarrin said. so yeah. then along came his friend dimaz. chatted and we moved three times to find a location to sit. zarrin was being a joker all the time. funny eh you. soon, we played true and dare. haha! the guys had to dance with the dustbin. lol. i had a great time laughing my ass out! then shared secrets and stories. ehemm. got lahh. you dont have to know though. ^^ thats all fer friday. on saturday! i had amath class in the morning. then i went to bugis in the afternoon, alone. yes, alone. i dont mind at all. i went to look fer some clothes. and i bought a dress. the flowery dress you will see in the pictures. gotta go buy more clothes! supposingly to meet firohfir and his friends at 4.30 at city hall but when i reached there, no msg or call. so i contacted shazz[my ex] to meet up fer awhile while i waited fer fir to contact. soon, fir called met them at esplanade carpark. i didnt know any of his friends and i feel akward. so i msged myy and they were already at marina. rushed to meet up with them as im more open with them.(: hang out as usual. soon everyone came along. lepaked and chatted and have fun. i went to sit with ibrahim wan all. with hanna and syaa. i really had fun laughing with them. especially ibrahim. he was pregnant with his hat in his shirt. then he took it off and i ask so where's the baby he said its in the hospital. and i ask whether its a boy or girl, he said bapok. merepek larh kamu. haha. while hanna malu2 kucing dgn wan nak main guitar. they look so cute. lol. and i bit zue hard. oh he's supposed to give me the piano keys fer its over song by secondhand serenade. i fergot to ask. then soon we made a move to go home. supposingly to meet ridwan but i was running late and he said he will send me home. but i dont know what i should do. so shima adviced me to be careful and i made up my mind to him another day instead. i just dont feel good or right at that time. so sorry ridwan. so thats it fer saturday. on sunday, nothing much. i just went to library alone to do my homework. and i took every single book there is at the library with the love sign on it. i managed to take 13 books but i only could choose one which i can borrow. then went back home. a boring day. today, on monday. ohhh gosh! I HATE MONDAYS. remember that. garfield hates mondays too. its just that bad things will always happen on this day. whatever it is, bad things will occur. i dont understand why. so the bad thing that happened today was i woke up late fer school! i didnt went to school. initially i woke up at 6am and i slept back. end up i woke up at 8am. no time to go school. i called my dad immediately. he said give letter saying that my grandma is sick. afternoon met up with myy and shee at yishun. aiya. the girl ika or whatever her name is. their schoolmate uhhs. merepek lah her. just dont layan her larh kay shee and myy. we took the bus to punggol park as shee and faeez wanted to skate. end up, faeez played with reno's deck, it broke! they say its imitation. haha. kesian seh his deck. you guys better have a good reason to tell him. and and myy taught me to jumpstyle. haha. a good way to exercise.(: basically thats all fer today. i got homework to do! i havent do it yet. and i got chemistry test! urrrgh. damn, all the lower sec and sec 3 are not schooling today and tomorow. so unfair. pfft. it sucks being a secondary 5 and taking Olvl. haiyoo. always end school late. still got half a year left before its all over. then freedom. but still, gawd, its so far away. :( i got no time to revise bcos of lack of time due to school too. hais. stress stress. oh. let me end this post. why oh why. does it always happen to me. why are you all the same? guys are always like this. ahh i dont know. lets just let them be. i'll try to be happy. go away then. just take care and goodbye. GUYS ARE ALL THE SAME. anyone who will prove theyre different from the rest? nahh, i dont think so. byeeeeeeee!

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