hais. things have changed. time has passed. i dont know if i can hold on anymore. why is it all my fault. i dont get it cos at times you didnt show me love. yeah, blame it all to me. its not like everytime its all mine. you avoid me and to think i still think that its nothing. you did it back to me, are you happy now. well at least you have your friends to turn to, but i dont knw if i do. hais. yeah im immature. yeah im still young huh. you lied to me. you took revenge. so much fer your words. you lied through your teeth. oh wait, everyone lies, every single day. you acted nice to me like as if nothing happened. i didnt knw you could do this too. yeah maybe its true. maybe i dont know you maybe you dont know me. much heart broken that i am to hear about what had happened yesterday. i wont know if you had done it times too. you done what i did. let me ask, will this ever end. maybe not. dont say those words if you dont mean it. then whats the point. then whats the point now when you dont feel the exact same way like we did 9 months and 19 days ago. i grew my love fer you all these times when initially at first we didnt love each other that much. i still remember how we got into a relationship. well do you? i wonder why things have become like this. i didnt mean to say all this, i didnt mean fer things to be like this. we're different now. everyone's changing. youre not who i expect to be, im not whom you expect to be. i dont know if i can hold on. i dont know if i can stand it anymore. so much of me loving someone who doesnt really love me back that much.

let me just end this now. but i still love you, i just dont want to let you go. i dont know if you feel the same way too.

i just got home awhile ago frm NUH.

hais. my grandma was just admitted to hosp.

yest went to her house at 12 plus in the morning.

cos received news that she's sick.

when reached there, she was weak. low on sugar i guess.

they called the paramedics and they came and took her off.

my aunt and uncle went to follow.

but too bad my parents working, and im schling.

guess she's fine now. i wish her gd health.

i dont wanna lose another. please.

the families[includes aunts/uncles] are like what now?

gossiping like girls who have not met each other fer years.

family thing, none of your business. its confidential, sorry.

all right. posts are getting lamer, getting boring. ive no mood.

gd night.

Leo. [july 23-aug 22]

The Bottom Line: Someone in your life is in a very grumpy mood -- steer clear of their pettiness.

In Detail: Someone in your life is in a grumpy mood today, and they are ready to find someone to blame for it. Don't let that person be you! Steer clear of anyone whose attitude is not to your liking right now, and find any excuse you can to remove yourself from their glare. You are not usually bothered by this kind of pettiness, but this person could really put you over the edge. Don't sweat your sensitivity. Just leave them alone. Focus on taking care of your own good mood. Keep yourself smiling. You know you know how to.

the day was long, as the usual.

something's wrong with my eng teacher today.

he came to class. and i repeat. HE came to class, and didnt utter a word.

he wrote on the board not to talk to him and do our compo corrections.

something weird may happen to him. hah. so obviously our class were happy.

and we joked ard cos we dont even knw whats up with him. emo maybe?

hahaha. he is a stuck-up teacher, arrogant, whichever he may be.

funny at times but sarcastically, duhh.

then afternn still had his extra class.

oh my gawd, again, he wrote on the board.

in capital letters now, DO NOT TALK TO ME.

i say why never put exclamation mark as well?

so we did letter to the editor while he sit silently.

he wrote instructions on the board.

i asked a qn, he just pointed to the board.

no matter how much we ask, he wont utter a word.

and one of my classmates wrote, 'talk to my hand' at the side of the board. lol.

i dont get it. whats up with him. sick maybe? or just he merajuk with us.

haha. i mean my chem teacher sometimes sulk in class bcos we nvr listen.

and randomly she does that. we say she got PMS.

haha. female, understood. but if male? hahs.

okay okay. maybe its just that its not his day.

but still he doesnt have to go to that extend of not talking at all.

oh well, the hours in a day seems to be longer huh.

cos i miss you. i really do. :( ♥

brownies sold out! till the very last piece. :D

even though we increased the price on the 2nd day which was today.

on monday, brownies was sold out first.

60 pieces was never enough. they ask me to bake again fer today.

it was more than 80 pieces, guess what.

it was sold out too! its amazing.

ppl commented tht its nice. of course, i love my mommy.

she bakes yummy delicacies.(:

oh, ice cream was good too although it somewhat melted.

apple pie was okay fer me. i prefer mcdonald's. hah.

so in total amt, we collected about 230 bucks there.

happy; cos we raised the money and brownies was sold out. *three cheers!*

oh, my group overheard tht the other grp in our class wanted to do the same.

we were like thinking, hell no way. dont they have better ideas to think of.

no offence though.

i think they may be selling keychains? ah, i dont wish to know.

AND! sch announced that those 23 students are selected fer the perth trip!

wohoo. i sent the form on that very day.

but they didnt announced the names, i hope im one of them!

i cant wait though its still ages away. hehs. *mood:excited.*

BUT BUT. i think im the only one in the class who's going. :(

oh well nvr mind, im an independent kitty. lol.

and i thanked all those students who had supported us fer this sree narayana mission home.

& Dee!, youre one of them. *hugs* :D

thats all folks! ♥

nothing to do today. was bored, damn bored. life's been boring. bcos i have nothing to do. went out in the afternn to buy stuffs to bake brownies. then to the lib after that, pathetically alone. did a few poa. then started drawing Looney Tunes. sketch, not traced out. ppl always taught i trace out my drawings. but no. okay. brownies are to be fer sale tomorow in sch. money collected fer old folk's home, sree narayana, at yishun. so my mum's brownies are tasty. seriously. currently the best brownies, to me. so my classmates are gonna sell ice cream, apple pie and brownies. during the upper sec recess and after sch. so grab as much as much as you can. oh sorry, im relating this to my schmates. if others wanna try, tell me. i'll save some if there are any left. hehs.(:

yay. i just finished watching Horton Hears a Who! online.

been wanting to watch it cos the elephant look so cute. lol.

the rememberence of the movie is:

"After All, A Person Is A Person, No Matter How Small."

who knows ppl are living on a speck of dust under your bed?

oh and, "I Say What I Meant And I Meant What I Say."

thats my favourite sentence now. [:

so yesterday,

i ONLY had like 1 and 1/2 hrs of sleep.

afternoon after my uncle's brother engagement[there was this 'hunk' from the deal or no deal there. thts what they say. must be related i guess],

went to town with my sis and her bf.

spend the whole day there. then my sis wanted to watch midnight movie.

although knowing that the next day im schooling. =.=

so we watched vantage point with the two couples.

rememberence: tak abis abis pukul 12.00pm.

watch it then you know what i mean.(:

and reached back home at about 4.30 am in the morning! just to complete my compo.

slept at 5.15 am and woke up at 6.45.

the compo was about a narrow escape.AND THEN, my english teacher didnt came into class.

i swear i could just stab him like a pillow.

and amazingly i was still awake during classes.

okay. i had just finished eating steamboat. im full. kay this is so unecessary.

oh well, it seems like there's just too much to talk abt.

i could only speak less.

last friday was my sis birthday, had a pit at east coast.

she received so many presents, i wish mine was like tht.

so her very expensive present is a AGV full-face helmet.

thats like super-duper-expensive. how lucky.

and..photos will be uploaded soon. but i dont know when.

im tired. im restless.

and my leg muscles are killing me, i cant walk properly.

the day just couldnt get any worser huh.

Sunday loves;

so yeah, those are the photos.

yesterday was my 9 monthsary with venom bby.

both of us were broke, so we wanted to watch movies at my house instead.

but he brought ghost movies, and i didnt wanna watch. =.=

went out to fetch my bro's gf and look fer dough at geylang.

the shop is very ulu at onan rd. went back to my house.

and we all watched bratz. [:

basically, i just wanna say to you, syg.

we've been together fer quite awhile now.

i thanked you fer all the memories, laughter, tears and love we had so far.

i know i had been such a disappointing person. i thank you fer being patient with me.

and i do treasure you, very much.

i dont know what will happen if i were to lose you.

but deep inside me, i know i do love you very much.

alright, stop being so emotional. lol.

just now had classes at school.

its tough being at this stage. oh and i hope to maintain my results fer the ca1.

as i wont be having any mid-year. and i got 14 points fer my L1R4 based on the results.

i need to maintain that! neeeeddd....tooo.... oh shush.

then on friday will be my sister's birthday and having a pit at east coast.

her bday alone will have alot of her friends.

i cant imagine if she's marrying.

i bet the space under the block wont be enough.

will be needing a football field instead. haha. kay stop it.

enough, hope the rain will stop soon.

have a gdnight! ♥

here i am lying dwn, while the rain falls.

its been raining these days, i wonder why.

oh well. i just came back frm evergrn sec few hours ago.

pathetically 4 hours in tht sch fer the malay O lvl workshop.

saw ekin and farihin saw me there.

the food they gave was tasteless.

a waste of time, but may benefit. [i hope]

yesterday, went out watch 10,000 bc with venom.

was abt this one hero saving his ppl and his women and such.

'talking to the spirits'? and there were some parts that are hilarious.

should watch to understand me.

then on saturday, had to iring pengantin/walk with the bride.

at the hilton hotel. gosh, fer the first time doing this.

me and the dancers were helping out the kuda kepang ppl cause their girls last min quit.

and we wore the kuda kepang costume including the head gear.

had our dinner there too. yummy foods.

there were shark fins, scallops, mango with prawns, fish, rice.

they serve it all one by one. with the rice being the last.

oh, i say you can get fat by then.

they cleared the food fast, we cant get 2nd serving.

oh ya! the bride and groom are like famous ppl. lol.

there were this mp for the east coast grc i think, the indian man.

sorry but i dont know whats his name.

and also eka mairina was there, singing.

is she pregnant again? i wonder cause she looks like she is. she wore the dress thingy.

so yeah. its like total grand.

and pictures cant be uploaded yet. something's wrong with blogger these days.

i'll upload it once blogger has improved alright.

till then, i wanna rest my body. its nice to slp when it rains. (:

BOO YA~

today was a stay-home saturday.

sad case huh. supposingly to go my grandma house.

but i didnt follow. i didnt went fer my dance either.

woke up early in the morning with the heavy rain,

i say you dont even wish to wake up.

me, bby, my sis bf, and my bro gf went to fetch my bro from his camp.

ended up we were late. eh no, my bro went out early.haha.

then my sis bf send us home first then fetch my sis from the airport.

just came back frm thailand. bought little stuffs though.

its okay. at least fer the past few days i had the room to myself. [:

then had lunch with the two couples while waiting fer my sis.

sister told us stuffs at thai, had accident but gd thing they were fine.

all three couple stayed at home chat and stuffs.

bby then had to go home, sadly. :(

oh yeah, i watched step up 2 the streets earlier on.

makes you wanna dance. dance. dance!

yesterday watched meet the spartans also. funny.

and talking bout yesterday.

went out with venom bby and his sis and the bf to orchard.

it was quite late already. then lepaked behind somerset before taking off home.

now, im missing my venom bby already.

i love you syg. ♥