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Sunday, April 20, 2008

here i am. fuuh. fucking dead tired and sleepy. *zzz. and i had an amazing long fun day on saturday.(: which i will be saying it as today, not yest. get what i mean? okay whatever. so yeah, early in the morning i had flag day fer the sree narayana mission home. oh gawd, i woke up late though i had the alarm clock. maybe its bcos i woke up at 5, went to kitchen found my mum and sis. then got to know last minute that my cousin has bbq pit at east coast. and i was like damn, ruining my plans. urrgh. supposingly to do the donations at 888, but me and nini[my classmate] and another girl supposingly to come but buih, went to admiralty instead. asked asked but got only a few money though. less than a quarter in my tin. nini was too lazy to do, i helped her out. after 1 hour or so, wanted to walk back to causeway towards 888 there. saw someone who looks familiar but seems like a very complete stranger. oh, like whatever. then nini and me chat chat go causeway pt eat and walked ard. saw izzat, the psychopneumonia guy, wished him happy birthday yet again. then soon, at last it was over! wohoo. padahal its only 1 oclock. but we've been suffering since 8 am. went back home. chatted with my sis and bro and his gf. and talking abt Australia, i reallly cant wait to go. one month plus to go. yayness! ehh wait. shouldnt i be like be more concern abt my malay O'lvl next month. im just not interested cos i dont understand malay and words which idk whats their meaning. cos usually i would ask my teacher to translate. then in the afternn went out to meet myy and shee at esplanade. soon, ielah, azzah and rahamoy came along. camwhored then lepak-ed at cermin as they called it. and i swear we were super-duper hyper! dance, skank-ed, shuffle, catching, hide-and-seek, moshed. damn, i had a very awesome day with them. shima too then came along. i LOVE these ppl. met alot of ppl as the usual. but more of familiar faces: hanna, fahfa, asswipe, wan, ibrahim, rara, riri, naufal bestie, bimo, yan, emma and alot others. i talked to yan, shared his problems. hey you cheer up yeahh! hugs* but sadly, i had to go off early bcos of that bbq pit. hais, when i was having such an awesome day. :( trained to bedok alone, waited fer my dad to fetch it took nearly an hour of boredom. i still could be there with them at that time. pfft. it was near to the new big splash. azri, my sister bf's friend, brought along a ?long board? which i said its like a skateboard. then soon i learnt how to play it all by myself.(: i wanted to play rollerblade but my sis doesnt want to give it up cos she wanted to learn. then another friend came along with a skateboard. skate, skate. then they ask me to learn to do oli[?] or whatever they called it. i tried but i just cant seem to jump. grr. never mind. it takes time to learn right. ending this day with such lovely memories. pictures time! & I LOVE YOU ALL! ♥

shee♥

myy♥

azzah♥

rahamoy♥

kitty♥

yan muke steam! :D

2:31 AM

Monday, April 14, 2008

BOOYAAHH! oh gee. know what. I HATE MONDAYS! yes, I HATE MONDAYS! just like garfield. though im not as lazy and fat like him. we do share the same things in common.(: oh yeah. i should basically explain why i hate mondays huh. firstly, its the starting of the week in school. and i feel kinda dizzy and stuffs in the morning. im not sick lurhs, i guess. and then it rained heavily, i didnt knw how was i to go back home. and my teacher is so siann i really felt like blowing up. delayed our precious time of 30 mins. firstly it rained, then she delayed saying that there aint any way of us to go home since it rained heavily. then the rain stopped fer awhile. i was pissed off cos i had to meet bimo and he was waiting. im so so sorry. blame MONDAY! so yeah when she released us at 5, it started to rained heavily yet again. grr. and i ran under the rain when rushing back home. waited fer the bus like waiting fer the world to collapse. and amazingly it was packed and my classmates had just borded the bus at that time. imagine how long they waited till i got time to go back home and change. not that the bus was already slow and late, i delayed the meeting. then i joined to have dinner with bimo and his sch friends. aidil, his friend, is such a joker. funny guy yeah.(: then drank green tea frapp which i last tasted it on sat frm ielah. it tastes like teh 'o with ice, really. haha. first time mahh. [dont mind me] after everyone left home, i went to borrow 2 books by irene nemirovsky. and lets hope my english will get better by then. oh! i fergot to mention. a cockroach, yes, a COCKROACH! was on my knee when i was sitting dwn somewhere. it was VERY disgusting i think i accidentally stepped on it or whatsoever when i was jumping up and down, getting rid off it. urghh. dead man you, dead! it was still half-alive i think, i dont bother to knw! there as you can just see how bad my day went on MONDAY! pfft. though some parts were happy/okay. and examples were i did get to meet bimo. AND shee&ielah, ive got good news fer you guys. ive found the card reader! it was with my sis all along thats why i couldnt find it anywhere. thank god man! wohoo. yayness.(: okay2. i shall end this hated day with this lovely yet rough though funny and sexy video! haha. i just cant stop laughing when watching the video of my two darlings in a girl-to-girl wrestling until i lost my voice by laughing too much yest. more of like lesbian rough fight! hahahaha. and oh it was yesterday's. WARNING! : NOT FER THE FAINT HEARTED! and do lower down the volume. :D

the video may either be lacking or my blog is too small to see the full size. sheila's has the video if youre desperate enough to watch. i bet you are. :D take care;

11:45 PM

Sunday, April 13, 2008

hais. such a happy day has to end this way. its hurting me like my heart has just been stepped on. it doesnt seem to bother you or anyone of how i feel. anyone will never understand the situation i am in right now. not even you. i never thought you could be this cruel. let me just say, all guys are the same, no matter what, directly or indirectly. they can be labelled as jerks or assholes. i hope the last man on earth wont be the same. hais hais haaaaaiss * a long deep sigh*. anyway thanks ielah and shima fer comforting me just now.(: and anxx also. THANKS! i love you guys. though i just got to know you all, a thousand of thank you's fer your care-ness. i couldnt thanked you guys more. and oh, including everyone who's been trying to cheer me up. love ya. im trying my very best but i just cant seem to get it off my mind. it takes time huh. im sorry if my post are kinda emo and stuffs. but at this time, i just want to let it all off. just wait and bear with me yeah. oh! just now in the train home, saw ebal and paul. ebal saw a girl who looked EXACTLY like pris. and thought it was her. hah. too bad it wasnt after calling her phone. pris, it really looks like you with the short length hair and bangs! your long lost twin! haha. but your 'twin' was like wearing all black. mc cafe person uh. then she spike her hair! which is so not like you with the silky hair.(: and the girl has piercing at her gum near the front teeth which is also not your type of person. and lastly, she dropped at yishun. haha. we said gdbye to your twinnie! :D today i had a fun day thanks to myy, shee, ielah, shima, tiwi&faisal [though you guys were in kind of sad day too] and bunch others. and saw sofea, zira, vanessa, hanna and also that person. that has left my day in a very disappointing and sad day. i still cant find the card reader, im sorry darlings. cant upload pics. it has gone mia currently. okay, guess i'll just end the day with a 'GOODBYE&TAKE CARE!' ♥

1:19 AM

Thursday, April 10, 2008

i stayed at home today. fer once in awhile. yest i didnt went to school. just felt like i didnt want to. and today, today is such a long and boring day. i still cant find the card reader! i really dont knw where it went. i need to upload pichas ehh. pfft. oh card reader, oh card reader, WHERE ARE YOU? ive been searching everywhere. damn it. just where are you? grr. tomorow im having a math test on graph, how annoying. cos i prefer amaths then emath fyi. and supposingly tomorow's the 10th month. but oh well. whats past is past.

:( my classmate said why my nick like so emo. lol! haha. "dont be emo larh," he said. ahaha. im bored at home! pathetically yes. oh well whatever. & im missing that someone...

8:51 PM

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

the final news, its over. yes, sadly but true. after a week then he replied me. dont ask me why. but its him who didnt wanna reply me. oh well. i just dont wish to elaborate it here. private it is, i just dont wish to make him look bad. he's still human right. just that, i hope you know what youre doing. i hope you'll be happy being your old self back. and one last thing. i just wanna say.

you dont to be so cruel to do that to me. its a week ive waited, yet, you were already seeing someone else. im hurt, awfully hurt. my heart had just been pierced by a thousand pieces of glass. my life sucks, i look pathetic. pfft. ohhh shucks. i dont know if i can overcome it. *sobs* but. i shall not bragggg about it. like everyone says so. let time heal me. and i hope it will. i had always love you. i thanked you fer the memories we had. fer everything that you have done fer me. i thanked you fer loving me. do take care of yourself. i will never say goodbye. much loves; KITTY. :'( now, i wont have anyone to love, anyone to constantly be talking to, anyone whom i know who will always, always be there fer me. hais. to you guys, i'll be fine. do enjoy your life as much as you can. i love you all. ♥

10:16 PM

Sunday, April 6, 2008

its been a week already. since ive updated.

things has happened. maybe alot of things.

im not so sure myself. so its been 5 1/2 days already.

ive been counting. dont think i dont.

i dont knw whats on your mind. i dont knw what you want.

but since things has been this way. guess thats what you want it to be.

i dont knw if im dumb to wait. i doubt so you care.

i doubt so you even love me. and what? whats your excuses?

whats your reason? whats your decision?

oh, fuck my life. i dont knw, i swear i dont knw.

hais. i dont knw how to face them. how am i to tell them.

i gave excuses to avoid qns. dont ask me, all i'll say is 'i dont fuckingly knw'.

i never had the life i always wanted. there are ups and downs.

but seems this is what its meant to be. i had love you and i knw i did.

'Never say "i love you"

if you dont really care.

Never talk about feelings

if they arent really there.

Never hold my hand

if youre gonna break my heart.

Never say youre going to..

if you dont plan to start.

Never look into my eyes

if all you do is lie.

Never say hi

if you really mean goodbye.

If you really mean forever

then say you will try.

Never say forever

cos forever makes me cry..'

oh fuckhead. i gotta stop it. i gotta stop being like this.

enough saying. guess its just meant to be.

OKAY. SEEE-TOOOOPPP!

let me just update abt my days.

FRIDAY! :

got my mass run after sch at innova jc.

damn, i felt like dyingggg after the run.

never had i run like that. its a pity, im not the top ten.

oh well, i did what i could, i tried my best.

saw previn [ex-riversidian/my friend's ex] on the way home.

and so we talked since we were gg towards the same road.

then at night went to rp. fer whatever reason, you dont have to knw.

saw syira darling, sasha tawin, and others.

and i got two rp shirts. mcm paham.

so someone trying to brainwash me into rp.

gosh no, i dont wish to go there. unless im being fated there.

i'll be stuck in wlds all my life if that happens.

i'll just go where my results will lead me.(:

SATURDAY! :

went to sree narayana mission home in the afternn.

gotta go and interact with them. and i did!

i talked to this 70-year-old malay women whose on wheelchair bound.

supposingly not to ask abt family but i kind of did.

so she has 11 children, oldest age above 50, youngest 30 plus i guess.

she has grandchildren and grand^2children. how many generations i may not knw.

she's been there fer 10 days. told me bcos her children arent able to take care of her.

scared she may fall if alone. but its gd to hear her childrens do visit her.

sad it is to be in nursing care, but sometimes you have no choice.

after that went out to meet myy! and shee! .

but met anxx before that. thanks fer the food and drinks, nanny!

gawd, i miss myy, shee, everyone!

and i miss going out. its been a looong long time.

saw tiwi, alice, faisal, bimo, wan, fadli, sofea, azira, elly!, hazira, naufal, fikks and others.

alot larhs. i miss all of them.(: elly busted ehh. never see me when i right in front of you!

and i hug and carried her till we fall hard on the ground,

IN FRONT OF ALL PEOPLE! thanks ah elly. i miss you larh pantat! hahs, ILY!

sat with tiwi and all since myy and shee went back early.

then trained myself home alone. and here i am typing all these fer two hours.

and i dont feel hungry these past two days. since after the mass run.

i ate one meal a day. i dont believe im not that hungry either.

OH. PHOTOS WILL BE UPLOADED SOON.

cos i cant find where's the card reader! -.- be patient.(:

have a sweet good night darlings, love you all. ♥

12:38 AM